jumaat lepas aku pi GH temankan liza dressing. meanwhile, aku amik kesempatan check gigi sebab dah lama tak buat dentist visit. mentang2 le gigi aku takde yang rosak (belum lagi), doktor tu selamba je cakap, "gigi awak takde apa2 pun. hari2 gosok gigi macam biasa bla bla.." isk! pemalasnya doktor tu. i did pin point gigi2 yg patut diconsiderkan some action, tapi dia cakap "ok lagi". uwaaaa...penat aku je tunggu giliran sampai 2 jam. cek tak sampai seminit pun.

semalam aku demam. MC. kalau tak kerana nak MC, aku mmg tanak pi klinik. ikutkan cakap liza, minta ubat dari housemate aku je. dia ada ubat selsema. aku pun memang tanak pi klinik ikut2kan la kan. sebab pikir2 macam almost tiap2 dua bulan aku pi klinik.

bila pi klinik..hmm..doktor pun cek. dia tanya, ada rasa suah nak bernafas tak? aku kata tak. dia cakap dia tak dgr paru2 sebelah kanan aku. lagi 2 weeks dtg, buat x-ray. mungkin after two weeks tu aku dah kebah demam sepenuhnya dan aku bleh diperiksa dalam keadaan normal kot.

aku, being me as always, mesti la tanya macam2. ape kebarangkaliannya doktor, sakit pe yg tak best nak dgr tu.. dia cakap2 la jugak. hmmm...seram juga. but i'm not worried (yet). yang aku risaukan, ialah org yang risaukan pasal aku. kalau aku gtau update kesihatan aku, aku cuak depa tambah risau. baik aku tak yah gitau. at least aku akan menikmati kegembiraan bersama depa. bab2 sedih tu, sorang2 je dah la. hehe.

ada guy sorang badan tough cam fahrin ahmad dok sebelah tempat aku. sape ek? techinician baru ke? *control sihat* alermak..malu la nak blow nose kekuat camni. huhhhhuuu

Ku berjalan Di bawah pohon asmara oh
Ku berjalan Di bawah pohon asmara
Berpura-pura tak perasankan mu
cuba mengetuk pintu hatiku

Kekasihku
Betapa kaki ku kaku Emm..
kekasihku...
Betapa kaki ku kaku

Oh bila saja kau menghampiriku
Semakin laju degup jantungku..oh

Namun jangan nanti emm
Kau sangka ku tak mahu yea yea
Menuruti kata hatiku yang suka kan mu oh

Jangan nanti dikau merubah hati
Salah sangka
Serta berpaling melupakan ku huuu
Kekasih jangan lah begitu

Usahlah terburu buru
Atur langkah satu persatu
Aku hanya terlalu malu
Untuk menyatakan isi hatiku

Kekasihku
Betapa kakiku kaku uuuh
Kekasihku
betapa kaki ku kaku

oh Bila saja kau menghampiriku
Semakin laju degup jantungku

Ku berjalan di bawah pohon asmara oh..
Ku berjalan di bawah pohon asmara
berpura pura tak perasankan mu...
cuba mengetuk pintu hatiku

namun jangan nanti emm
kau sangka ku tak mahu oh
menuruti kata hatiku yang suka kan mu oh
jangan nanti dikau merubah hati
salah sangka serta berpaling melupakan ku...yeah
kasih jangan lah begitu

Usahlah terburu buru
Atur langkah satu persatu
Aku hanya terlalu malu
Untuk menyatakan isi hatiku

Usahlah terburu buru
Atur langkah satu persatu
Aku hanya terlalu malu
Untuk menyatakan isi hatiku yeah yeah

pes time masuk keja lambat tapi sorang pun takde kat YM. musykil musykil. arini cuti ke?

ok tak kalau registration form aku berbentuk camni?

owh well. mesti bos aku tak agree punya. got to back to work.

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UPDATED: skang pukul 6.50pm
tak balik rumah lagi. sat gi nak balik. my job is taking its toll on my back. sakit belakang. tadi aku cam terbuat someone terasa hati bila aku cakap "bosan gak keja web design ni". sorry la. i dont mean it. it just that i'm lack of time n idea nak design web. bukan bidang aku. so aku takde tools. asal aku request nak dreamweaver, ke code charge ke, photoshop ke, 'dia' akan cakap "kena ada lesen". so aku kena la pakai sumer2 yg open source je. so beside doing an image map utk navigate form, aku pakai javascript. skang nak create template manager pulak. waiting for a feedback from a fren. minta tolong yus tgkkan coding dia. aku kena amik masa sket utk jatuh cinta sekali lagi pada web developing process. hahaha.
somehow aku bebetul rasa cam tgh buat projek final year. pasal final year project aku dan beberapa rakan sume berunsurkan on-line. ye lah..time tu cam hip gila la sistem2 online ni. hahahha.
ok la. nak balik. arini tak memasak kot. kenyang dah makan laksa penang tadi. nak balik, baca magazine, n ulangkaji. lagi 5 minggu peksa. then abih la kelas aku pasal cikgu nak balik kampung beraya. A demain! (see u tomorrow)
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last week i learned that jolie means beautiful (in french). so now i should be called as lina jolie. sounds familiar? hhahahaha

i had a hair cut last friday. ta daaa..
beside knowing my bestfriend is planning her marriage with her significant other today, i'm buzzing the busy, busy bee once in a while on YM.
I told a friend that i'm kinda have this lonely n being left out feeling. he made it sound like crap. "it doesnt matter". owh..sgt la tak sensitifnya. things that doesnt matter to u, might matter most to me.thank God u're not my boyfriend :P

boss: lina, u scankan benda ni OCR, bagi format *.doc
aku: tapi encik, scanner kita tak sapot *.doc. boleh convert ke *.pdf, *.html ngan *.txt je
boss: takpe. buat je *.pdf. nanti copy
aku: (err..kan ke nanti format lari? aduhh..kena alter banyak la camtu)
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admin: wahh..dah pakai spec dah dia. macam lecturer la
aku: eleh..ke macam budak repeat paper banyak kali. hahahaha

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pakai spec buat aku nampak lebih serius... buat keja.

I thought it's only me who used that word in my nick. Tetiba tadi nampak ada sorang tu pakai word yang sama n put it at the end of her name. Hmm...tak special la camni.

My YM program goes berserk. Gatai nak pakai yang latest, so I went to download the YM with voice version althou I know I'd never used the voice conference/ call function. I wonder why 'games', 'send file' and 'photos' are disabled in my new yahoo messenger as I didnt choose to. And this is not a chomel thing to happen.

wanna know how crazy it is? see my archieve:

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premature organisation
..is the root of evil.

as i cook computing almost everyday, i come across this kind of situation several times. sometimes i feel like it is coded my life too. not good.

after all this while, i dream up my dreams and plan my future.. but as we all know, world changes fast every second. someone i knew from yesterday might make me feel i know her no more. there are jobs that i never heard or even know, or may be not even exist when i was in primary school, and now i'm doing one of it for living.

apparently, life is not what i've planned it to be, but choosed. based on options that opened to me during the moment. althou there are guides from parents and friends, as far as i concern, my life is shaped by my own curiosity. and thanks to God, i'm still doing fine.

yesterday, i went to a course with my friends. there were a lot of topics has been discussed. the one that made me think most was about responsibilities. not only made me wonder am i able to bear the word 'obey' but also has made me think hard about is there a man out there who really-really capable and willing to provide me a place to stay, a strong roof over my head, food to eat, clothes to wear in my state of comfy? ok. i add that. all within his budget. i mean, generousnya dia sebab ibarat gaji dia dibahagi dua ngan wife, and dibahagi tiga dgn anak pertama nanti, yadda yadda..

these past 3 years i've been working hard to fulfill my own desire. hard-earning money makes me think before i spend it on food (all-time devil), house, clothes (all-time devil), movies (last year's devil), bus trips (last year's too), vacation (only twice this year). i know how hard to earn it so i spend it wisely (?) ok... at least i've tried :P

because i know money is hard to earn, i prefer not to susahkan anybody. i remember when i had a bf before, i paid half the phone bills, i never claimed any expenses that i spent when i was with him. i think what the old saying is true, "nak makan pun tak cukup, macamana nak bela anak org?" (this imply only on men)

so again. eventho i dont take money as God (like what's written on my birth zodiac), i do think everything needs money nowadays. now, kesan dari course yesterday, i'm more respect to my dad sebab boleh tanggung kami one family until i have my own life now.

The golden moments in the stream of life rush past us, and we see nothing but sand; the angels come to visit us, and we only know them when they are gone.(George Eliot)

to my beloved friend, Seri a.k.a Bell, happy birthday.